It will be 1 year on February 12 since My Nevaeh became a precious angel. I still can’t see how all this time past without her, it feels as if yesterday we were just laughing and talking about what the future would have in store for us. Never would have I imagined I would be continuing alone. By alone I don’t mean that I have no one because I have my entire family from my moms, my dads, to Gabriel’s mom, dad, and all his family for support, along with all our friends, which I am beyond grateful. But when I say alone I mean, the only person who was more than sincere with me, the person who loved me most in this world besides all my flaws. The only person who never once saw me as a bad person or bad mother. She always knew how to brighten my day with her knock knock jokes and her crazy loud laugh that was so contagious you had to laugh along. The way she always put others first and she was only 6, but the way she cared for another person was so pure hearted and amazing. As cliché as it may sound, she was the one who inspired my everyday, my motivation to keep moving forward besides all the obstacles that came along for us. I could keep going on forever on how brave, smart, loving and beautiful my baby was.
Everyday is a battle for my family and myself to keep going when we really just want to be with Nevaeh again and hold her close. It’s scary how sometimes we need to take a step back and realize that this isn’t just a bad dream. And as painful as it is I want to remember all the beautiful things Nevaehs taught us and keep that memory alive. I need that much.
I didn’t know if this would be a good idea or how my family and I would feel, but as the more I thought about it the more I was convinced that this is perfect for Nevaeh.
With that being said, I want to invite everyone To A Remembrance Walk in Honor of Our Lost Angels at 80 st Park by the Lake. My family & I want to remember not only Nevaeh but every daughter, son, mother, father, grandparents, uncles, aunts, friends that sadly can’t be with us today, but will be remembered Always & Forever.